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THE LOVE OF JJ

                    The people I love are my family friends and friends that are family. When I get a girl I will never let her go no mater what happens because I’m like that. People don’t choose for me what my girl did I will believe what my girl says. I hope that she will do the same to me. I will keep her warm when she is cold. I will treat her like a Queen. I would die for her. And when I fine that girl when I am 21 out of college I will ask her to marry me at the most beautiful place like in France or in London in front of a statue or a garden with red rose’s daisies all the flowers she likes. I would get on one nee and open the little boxes and there it is the $500 ring it would be 24 caret gold and 100 diamond and if she yes. Well then I would plan a wedding on a beach or in a hot air balloon or in a church. Then we would get each others name on are ring finger her name on mine and my name on hers. This is what I will say at my wedding. I will not make the same mistake that my parents did that was stop loving each other and split a parting.  I promise that will never happen to us. I will not let my wife and kids go though the same thing I did.

I will never stop loving

This is for all the peaps out there that fight.

 WHY FRIENDS

             Hey my name is JJ I live in a peaceful place called Gardner. Until the day I came to the Gardner. It felt like Gardner went into a dark hole. Now it feels like it is crumbling with all the lies, drugs, and felons .All my friends lie to each other yes it’s harsh but it’s true but ( I don’t lie to them) they want me to be on there side but I’m on both. People say that it’s ok to lie yea but not to your friend’s. Are friendship should be truth, love, respect honor goodness. Not hate not lies that should never be in the friendship of circle. I see friend’s fighting good friends become enemies best friends become hate that is what I see. BUT why is that. Is it that evil is ruling the world now and good was beaten in a fight well I say no because I am still here so no as long as I am here evil will never win the fight if I stay. When I walk down a street I see that anger sadness I wish that I could not see it but that is covering the truth just like my friends they cover the truth they don’t see it. WHY the hell do we do this to each other it pisses me the fuck off it dose. Please some one tell me why. Like when I ask some one out they say no but they won’t tell me the truth they say they don’t know why they won’t go out with me I know why it’s because I am fat tell me the truth it feels better then me figuring it out by my self. I still ask why

Hey read this it is for realy.

TIERED OF CHASING

                  They say that if u chases the one you love until they stop and you won’t stop. Well I’m tiered of chasing. I have bin chasing for a long time like 5 years no one sees who I am but what they do see is a fat kid. If you had a chose pick me or the this guy that has a six pack  but he was a dick to you who would you pick me the fat kid or a skinny six pack kid that is a dick to you I know what people would say to me you JJ. Well that is what they say but I know what is in there head I would pick the dick head. You know what I’m so tiered of this mouse and cat. What I think I  will never find that girl so I ask you what is a life that has no love nothing just like me that is what I feel nothing I have no care what happens to me words can’t hurt me pain could not hurt me. I’m like a puzzle I’m put to gather but there is one more peace missing. I want to have a chance to show my love but I think that I will never get a chance I’m tiered of seeing some one I like go out with some one else it is tearing me apart I’m seeing me dieing alone I see me killing my self I CAN’T TAKE THIS PAIN NO MORE. I have attempt to kill my self before but that was when I was name the fat kid for life but love well maybe not try but do it. Some one stop me. It feels like its that time to die like some one wants me to come to the after life they are saying to me there is no reason to live no one likes you I say my friends like me they say no they don’t they talk be hind each others back what do you think they say about you. I scream no no I cry I hope it’s not true but all I hear is yes yes they don’t like you. I can see them not thinking about us being together but they keep saying yes yes yes. I go in to a dark deep hole with no one there just me running away from them but they get closer to me by day by day. I have been running for 5 years they are so close that I can see the blackness of there eyes I put all my hart into running away I can still run but I don’t know when I will stop that mite be soon then when that happens I will be in the sky watching the water falling no not from the sky but the eyes of people.                    

sup you guys im one deep mofo read this and find out why?

                                                      giving up

What is giving up? Is it when you don’t try? Well yes to other people it dose to me no. Do you want to now what it means to me well I will tell you. It means dieing taking my life away. I fear that I will die but not from old age or from health but with my own hands. I’m in a fight and I am giving it all not to die but I want to give up but I won’t because I am still fighting to stay here were all the people I love are dear to me but I feel weak in strength .I will still fight but I can’t do this forever. So I will give up the fight. But not until I think its time. The thing I am fighting is evil and sadness. They are tarring me apart. I need to rest for a long time I just want it to stop well if it doesn’t soon I will give up. Don’t think that I’m scared.I have bin fighting for 5 years. So if you think that I am a pussy well lets se how long you can go. When I do give up I hope that I don’t see the tears of ocean filling the world with sadness. I guess that sadness would go to every one so I can’t give up but so tiered. So tiered. So tiered. Bye. Bye.                    

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